Monday 18th October 2016 – Alcohol Free
Not a lot to say, actually. It’s Monday and I never have any desire for alcohol this early in the week when work is so busy. It’s soap night and Ru Paul’s Drag Race are all I’m looking forward to.
Tuesday 19th October 2016 – Alcohol Free
Feeling brighter than usual at the moment. I’ve had a load of work I’ve been doing in the evenings and going to bed much later than usual. It’s very strange and difficult to explain the shift in how I feel. It’s the same as usual, but different at the same time – akin to a feeling of walking through water instead of walking through mud.
Sometimes I think I must be imagining this, as it’s subtle stuff. It’s not enough at the moment to make me feel that giving up might actually be the way, but enough to start making me wonder whether I need to be much stricter with myself in the future.
Wednesday 20th October 2016 – Alcohol Free
Not much to say – no temptation. Private work and then return home late. Too tired to consider lack of alcohol. Starting to look for some Halloween inspiration for a couple of events happening next week. I’m slightly worried that I’m not going to be able to keep dry until November. I’m seeing a couple of friends in Agabavenny at the weekend and I think I may be able to hold it together then, but Halloween? I’m not so sure.
This is definitely getting easier.
Thursday 21st October 2016 – Alcohol Free
Tra-la-laaahhh! Oh how different this feels to a couple of weeks ago. I don’t know if I’m happier to be finding this so much easier, or the fact that I’m nearing the end game and will be able to enjoy a tipple soon.
Friday 22nd October 2016 – FAIL 🙁
Seeing a couple of friends in Abergavenny and succumbed. I wish I could say I’m upset with myself, but ‘by jingo’ it tasted good! Back on the straight and narrow tomorrow….
Saturday 23rd October 2016 – Alcohol Free
Back from my foray in Wales. Tonight going to the cinema with a friend to see ‘Ouiji.’ I was tempted to meet for a drink beforehand, but ended up with a large diet coke! Enjoyed it and feel better that I didn’t just let my Dry-Tober go completely to seed after my little blip yesterday. I’m well and truly back on the horse now. Lemon and ginger tea (as usual) and a cronut going begging.
I’ve definitely increased my carb allowance and feel I’ve put on weight. I’m not imagining it. Need to cut down. Why is everything I enjoy always so bad for you?
1 week left. Even though – apart from the 1st week – this hasn’t been nearly as bad as I had thought it might be, I can’t wait for it to be over. Next week is going to be very social. I can tell you right now, I don’t think I’ll come out of this tee total.
Sunday 23rd October 2016 – Alcohol Free
BORING. I’ve been busy writing reports all day and could really do with a bit of something to lighten the monotony. In the shape of a wine glass…..
I’m getting a bit fed up of this now. It’s not that I’m craving alcohol or anything, but it’s the not being able to choose to have a glass when I fancy. Even if it’s once a week. Does that make me addicted? No – I don’t think so. Can’t wait for this all to be over.